signs.

today started like any other sunday...sleeping in & telling keen a half dozen times that i would take him out before i would actually pry myself from the warm blankets to do it...or maybe a dozen...and then eventually crawling out sometime before 11. d & i had my "perfect" sunday planned...brunch (my favorite meal), an afternoon movie...some unhurried time at the gym...planning our weekly schedules & meals...it was just like most sundays around here. 

or so i thought...

and then surprisingly...at least to me...was the very bold message/reminder/happenstance that strikes you as a moment in time that you could not forget if you wanted to do so. 

d & i saw a movie that spoke to the very core of my being...rattled my cage...made me feel hazy & discombobulated & lost...as if i were only floating in & out of the remainder of the day...and yet so fully aware of a whole host of my faults...

ouch. 

and then....a full hour after the movie had ended... still haunted by this sick feeling that my soul had been turned inside out...

i saw a sign. 

literally. 

d was driving & probably scared the bejeezus out of him when i suddenly asked him to stop the car...(mind you i had been an emotional disaster for the past hour & he probably thought i'd snapped)...but he agreed...and i ran down the sidewalk in my winter coat & hat & scarf to capture this: 

i must have looked like the joker when i ran back to the car...smiling as if i'd won the lottery...it felt as if i had....(well, that & the fact that a homeless man walked behind me as was taking the picture & proceeded to relieve himself quite unashamedly)...

i haven't had time to process all that has flooded my mind & heart & soul in the passing hours since...i fear i haven't conveyed the overwhelming grace i experienced today...because i can't fully explain it yet...and i am painstakingly slow when it comes to soaking up these sorts of lessons...but it had to be shared...set adrift out there in cyber space like a message in a bottle...

i'd like to think maybe it's a sign for someone else, too....